To Legba,

Greetings. I went off one of my meds for a few days, the Trazadone. I didn't get the buzzies. Not that you'd care. I just felt fragmented and confused. It made me miss you. Funny that. The first time i cared enough to miss you in 2 years, and its when im at my worst.

I don't miss how you treated me, nor how you choose to behave.

I miss the things we had in common. The music, the singing, the darkness. I miss how you nurtured my darkside and had confidence in my potential.

I miss the long talks of dieties, beings and the otherworlds. I miss your magick books that i threw away in a fit of rage. I am sorry about that, I do feel quite bad. I miss some of the things I hated about you too.

Unfortunately, you seem to have destroyed the person that i once knew and now missed.

It makes me sad that I will never meet that amazing guy again.

And no, it still does not make up for the fact that you put a charm on me long ago and took control of me for 10 years.

I miss you.

But please stay away from me.

Always,
Erzli